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Some Insight on Marriage, one Sisters story...

During a wedding shower a friend asked if I could share some insight on marriage and how to keep it together? I started to think of what advice or words of encouragement I may say as I took the question very serious. So I spent some time thinking of what to say and I asked the Most High how does he want me to answer this question? Through prayer I thought about this long and hard and the reflections from my past failures and lessons learned came to my mind…

See I was married before for many years and I thought I understood marriage and relationships because I had read every book known to man in search of answers and I spent a lot of those years really working on my spirit so that I could be a better person and work hard so my husband would love me the way I wanted to be loved. In doing all of that I still didn’t have the love I needed and I believed at that point my husband was the one who was not willing to grow or change so when I had the scriptural grounds for divorce I ended my marriage.

Several years later I found the Truth and got baptized. Thereafter I met my husband and at the exact moment I met him I knew he was the man the Most High told me I would marry years back. We married with me knowing deep within that he was the Man I would fulfill my destiny with until the ends of time. I followed my spirit and I dedicated myself to Ahayah and my husband and together we set out to serve him.

Over time something happened, things started to feel familiar again and I was really confused and blown away and I was like why am I feeling this way walking around with an attitude, being moody and having petty fights with my husband - for this is not suppose to be happening to ME this time! Remember I was the “one” who read all the self-help books, I learned to be a better person, I had grown and most of all I married my KING! We are supposed to be happy and in love... this makes absolutely no sense! Why, Why Ahayah why???

It took a lot of time for me to be given the answers and it is only recent that I received understanding. You see it was ME the whole time; the issues had always been ME!

One thing I knew true was that my relationship with my husband was only as good as my relationship with the Most High and if I didn’t have a solid one with GOD I could not expect a good relationship with my husband. So I had to turn back to GOD for the answers but this time I wanted to search out the Most High and discover him like I had never done before. I wanted to learn about him in new more vast and broad ways. I wanted to know what he really did and create and the actual reasons why; so I started to search for him in areas I never looked before, I began studying his Works of the heavens, earth, sea, thunders and lightening, fire and water, the sun and moon, the seasons and years, the days, and hours and I was absolutely astounded! I learned how the earth was made to represent us…our flesh from the clay of earth, our blood from the dew, our eyes from the sun, our bones from stone, our hair from the grass of the earth… and my love for the Most High overwhelmed me!

I started thinking how do I honor and glorify this amazing GOD? And something said start with the Holy Days because he said follow his Laws, Statues and Commandments …, and a desire grew for me to want to observe the Holy Days in the fullest sense and so I started studying everything I could on the Holy Days; when they are to be observed, the significance of why “each” one was established… like the First fruits/Feast of Weeks in (Leviticus 23:15) which was to represent each of the four seasons Noah experienced while in the ark and how they were to be a sign to let him know when to exit the Ark and this Holy Day is observed on the exact day Noah exited the ark with his family – wow I was fascinated. From there he led me to understand other discoveries of his Power in the earth and its elements and how if he told a mountain to move so one could pass how that mountain would obey because its governed by the laws “he” created in nature and how one day we to could learn how to use the earth to obey us! Wow!

Now what does all that have to do with marriage you might ask? A lot!

My reflections on my journey led me to comprehend what marriage IS and is Not … See we are suppose to “use” the challenges, joys, struggles and celebrations of marriage to draw closer to the Most High and STOP asking of marriage what GOD never designed it to be. The truth is we can’t look for another person to complete us because spiritually speaking that is idolatry. We are to find our fulfillment and purpose in GOD. . And if we expect our spouse to be 'GOD' to us, they will fail every day. No person can live up to such expectations."

Everyone has bad days, yells or is downright selfish. Despite these imperfections, GOD created the husband and wife to steer each other in His direction.

GOD did not create marriage just to give us a pleasant means of having babies and providing a nice home to raise them. He designed or should we say “created” marriage as “another” example of his existence like the examples I learned in his creation of the universe.

So today I understand that the closer I get to the Father, the more I learn of him, share with him who I am by prayer and telling him how I feel, what I need and want the “easier” it is for me to honor my husband and love him as a Man of the Most High and be a willing helper that the Most High sent me to be to him… so when my husband is tired I am his pillow, when he is weak I am made strong, and when he is worried the Most High is our comforter. So though at times I might get mad at him I be damned if I let anybody try and break his spirit.

I am his rock and soft place and the one to reinforce him to go back into the harsh elements of this world, I help lift him up. And if anyone tries to form a weapon against him I will be his Shield so that he can get away and be a King for our Nation - because that is what a Queen does.

For a wife is a relief to her husband when the winds are against him!

In closings we leave you with this quote…

 "If happiness is our primary goal, we'll run or get a divorce as soon as happiness seems like it’s never going to be possible or we will want someone else as soon as our husbands seem less attentive… But if our marriage is to Honor the Most High and be a living example of his love in us and his creation we will be on our way to a healthier perspective of marriage and in that we can be happy!”

All praise to the Most High, Ahayah and his son Yashaya!

by GOCC

Are You Out of Sync?

Have you been feeling tired and run down lately?  Are you easily distracted, irritated, and less attentive?  Are you fatigued, have headaches can’t sleep or sleep too much? Are you trying to keep it all together so no one notices?  

I can tell if I am in that place again by just looking around my house. The first sign is the chair in my bedroom where clothes have piled up, and then it moves into the bathroom where my products are all over the place and oh and the big indicator is my closet… once the clothes start to become a big heap and I can’t find anything I know I am in that place again.  What place is this? The place where everything has gone to pot and everything in your life is upside down and where you are no longer in tune with your inner self. And you are OUT OF SYNC!

How does one get here?

To think this time I actually saw it coming… I sat there as if watching a movie on TV seeing my life slowly unravel. I watched shaking my head like, "Will she ever get it together and how in the world does she find anything in that closet. Wow if those bags under her eyes get any darker I will think she was in a fight. Wait a minute didn’t I see her here a few years ago dealing with this? No, it can’t be her she was doing so well and had it together, how could this happen to her…Again?"

How? Once again I stopped sticking to the basics… I stopped watching what I was eating, stopped taking my vitamins, and stayed up way to late, getting through the day on less than 4 hours sleep.  I was rushing from one place to the next trying to do everything for everyone else with no thought to myself or my well-being. 

I stopped considering the things that kept me fit, healthy and at my best and I replaced them with those bad old habits of “I can do it tomorrow” or “one more bite won’t make a difference” or “I can get some sleep once I’m done with this.” Yep excuse after excuse took over and before I knew it I was running away from my life, from me.  I just got tired and didn’t care anymore about keeping it all together (though deep down inside I knew this was temporary and that the real me would prevail). However, this continued until days turn into weeks and very little got accomplish and I was just going through the motions knowing I would crash sooner or later.

And guess what? I did! I woke up one morning and I could barely get out of bed, it hurt to just walk. I had worn my body down to the ground and I struggled to the bathroom looked in the mirror at my puffy face, my back hurting, both knees ached and everything in my body felt broken! I was so disappointed to be in this place again knowing better.

But what can I do, should I beat myself up? Seek therapy? Pay for another gym membership or all 3?

 NO! STOP! THINK!

I had to get a grip and realize that no matter what has happened I am still me, I am not this bad person my mind wants me to believe because I let things get out of sync nor have I failed myself. I had to accept where I was at this time and realize that setback happens to all of us. Sometimes when you don’t pay attention to where you are going you lose your focus and that’s exactly what happened to me. I had all the right tools understood the process and knew how to implement it but I was missing the key factor…I had lost my Focus. It was now time for me to re-group and get back to the basics but because I had let it go for months I knew it would not be easy.

First I had to talk it out with the Most High and tell him what I had done to myself and how much I needed his help and to please help me trust him and myself to do this. Then I had to get some serious rest and put myself back on a scheduled that allowed me at least 7 hours of sleep (it took weeks before I finally felt rested). I had to get back to drinking 10 cups of water a day, take multivitamins and drink lots of herbal teas. Once I started doing this I slowly had enough energy to tackle my pile of clothes in the chair and put the laundry away. Then the next week I tackled the bathroom and two days later I had energy to tackle my closet.

I was starting to feel charged again, not 100% but better. So I sat down and wrote out a weekly plan of things I needed to get done understanding that I could not do everything in one day but if I spread it out in the course of a week I could relax because I knew: on Sundays I evaluated my progress and set my schedule for the upcoming week, Mondays was the day to clean out the fridge and family day, Tuesdays was grocery and paying bills, Wednesday I could meet with the sisters, and Thursday I could set aside time for studying, early Friday I could give the house a total cleaning and prepare for the Sabbath. Once I gained momentum and trusted myself with sticking to a plan I then started changing my diet and incorporating 60 minutes of exercise a day (this is still a struggle but I am getting fit). Very basic stuff I know but when you’re out of sync you have to go back to the ABC’s.

So here I am today, I still have the same responsibilities but I am managing them – they are not managing me. I feel better and know I am on my way to the best version of me! I am healing everyday and paying more attention to my choices understanding that I don’t get to take a break from my life and that I must fully live in it each and every day!

 My advice to anyone feeling out of sync is…

“Every morning begin your day with the Most High praying to him for his guidance and support, asking him questions like - Ahayah what do you think about this or Ahayah should I go here first or there. Share your inner thoughts, feelings and concerns with him and in doing so you will develop a relationship with him where he becomes your best friend and you take him everywhere you go throughout your day!

Next, meditate on your goals to give PURPOSE to your day and every night before you go to sleep, pray and think about your vision of the ulti­mate You—Strong, Spiritual, Healthy, and Happy. Reaffirm your belief in yourself and your goals, and stick to them! Make it happen! Be the REAL YOU and run the Race of Life to the fullest so you will no longer be out of sync!"

by GOCC

A Beginner's Journey in the Truth

If any of you have every watched the TV series from 1995 called the ‘Nowhere Man ’, it explores the mind of a man whose life is turned upside down as a mass conspiracy concerning his life begins to unfold. Everything he thought he knew is ripped out from under him and ‘they’ start to psychologically mess with his mind to get him to question his own reality. As you journey with him you start to relate with him and you think –‘Trust no one. They’re all in on it!’

It’s reminiscent of being new to the truth. We can all remember that day vividly when the course of our life changed. When we found out who we were as a nation and that everything we thought we knew about our faith and this world was one big illusion and conspirator lie! Immediate isolation hits, as your eyes are opened and yet everyone else you encounter is still in deep slumber.

Initial Reactions

For some, you take in the information and put all the jigsaw pieces in place and you get a sense of peace because you knew something wasn't right with the world and the truth has finally set things straight. For others you need a time out from life to process this all, you look at the video you watched or the person who revealed it to you with a sceptical brow and squinted eyes  thinking , ‘No way will I be lied to again, I need to make sure this is the real deal!’

Patience and Timing

Whichever way you react to it, it all needs some level of adjustment and coping mechanisms. You might want to tell every single person you know about what you discovered, but think about this, you were primed in advance by the Father to cope with the bombshell that was dropped on you. So not everyone is going to be ready because you want them to be, nor will they all see what you see instantaneously. Don’t force this truth on anyone, it speaks for itself. So try not to get discouraged, we have all been there. It’s not only about speaking the truth but knowing when to say it, because no matter how true it is, if it is not a word in season it will not be as well received.

Choose your bait

You need to be cunning as a serpent and harmless as a dove, know who you’re talking to and what their bait is. Relate to them on their level, show them the conspiracy in something they are passionate about then bring it full circle gradually depending on their interest.

You want to drop everything!

Some want to quit their job immediately, quit college a week before finals, hop on a plane quickly out of dodge, but take a moment. Understand that we all encounter the end of the world daily, because you never know what hour or day the Father will require your life. So your primary focus should be preparing spiritually, getting baptised, following the laws in the spirit of Christ, praying and asking for guidance on your next steps to physically obey what has been revealed to you. So be patient and wait for an opportunity for the way forward to be shown to you.

The breakdown

It happens with many of us, the fullness of the conspiracies, lies and the desolate state of our people hits you. You also feel the weight of the sin of your foreparents who grieved the Most High by their spiritual fornication and you confess their faults and yours and that of the nation and breakdown in tears out of heavy sorrow. Remember, this was the constant state of the prophets from Ezra to Jeremiah, they all put on sack cloth and ashes and lamented over the sin and condition of their people.  You might also feel anger or outrage towards your persecutors and to those being used by satan to control this world. It is important to realise that our sin led us to this point and only by returning to the Father can we be restored and find peace.

Isolation and people thinking screws are lose

You’ve now told all the people you know about this conspiracy, you’ve had everyone give you the crazy looks, they’re starting to think you have mental issues, like the preacher types we all grew up seeing on the street warning that the end was here! They’re thinking ...‘Aha this is how it all starts then’. Don’t question your sanity, hold tight to the seed that was first sown in you and fight to let it germinate grow and give fruit. You’re not crazy!

How to cope and where your focus should be

You first need to build yourself up spiritually. Throw yourself into the bible, classes and communion with likeminded people. We were not created to be isolated so don’t start now. It’s all about building your foundation and making sure it’s built on rock because you need to prepare yourself for the challenges that Satan will bring to try to rob you of what was sown. So guard it diligently, try not to get too caught up in YouTube commentary with naysayers, and precept battles with people on Facebook and social media, and try to stay focused on the teachings where you first learned this truth to build yourself in sound doctrine. This page is a good place to start on the website. You could’ve watched all the videos and seek more; more new knowledge or understanding, but do you understand the basic principles of Christ that are the pre-requisite to making it? You may be looking for the next Hebrew book outside bible but do you understand and know the 66 contained in the bible? The Academy helps systematically deprogram all the lies and replace it with truth and provides you with a chronology of our history and scripture. You’re a new born in the truth,  a sponge and that’s ok but always link it back to what you would expect from a new baby. Take baby steps. You could be trying to run before you can crawl and you  can become discouraged when adversity hits you.

Endurance

This is a long distance marathon and not a sprint. We all want to endure till the end to make it into the kingdom but it’s not an easy road, temptation will be strong after baptism, not seeing prophecy fulfilled in ‘your time frame’ may have you questioning but remember our foreparents and how they prophesied back then 100s of years before the judgement came. As stated earlier, the end of the world in death could happen at any time, so endure and stay on the road and don’t turn back like Lot’s wife.

So everything you are feeling, we have all gone through, think of it as teething pain; necessary and it may hurt however the result is that you can now move onto meat!

Hope this helps, Blessings Family

by GOCC